happy holidays!

I hope you all had a Merry Christmas! Heres a summary of my holiday...

Christmas Eve I made Squash Casserole and Snickerdoodle cookies and took them to my parents house. Dad made a Ham, fresh greenbeans with saltpork, fresh candied yams, and he also made cheescake and pecan pie. Mm Mm Mmmmm! Haha. NL came with me and when we left them we went to NL's friend JP's house. We ate dinner with them as well but there food was MUCH different. They had what NL says is a traditional Catholic Christmas dinner. We had stuffed squid, spaghetti w/marinara, shrimp scampi, and this seafood salad with shrimp calamari and OCTOPUS! (suckers and all!) Ok so I ate the shrimp and squid but... the octopus was where I drew the line. I tasted it and I didn't hate it but I couldn't get past those suction cups.... I'm getting a little squemish thinking about it now..LoL! So after that we went to NL's Cosuins house to visit some of his family and have dessert... again. We left at about 11:30 because some of the more religious family memebers were leaving for midnight mass.

Christmas Day we slept in. (Santa didnt come to our apartment this year lol) We went to NL's sisters house for breakfast and she gave us each a gift. Then we took NL's father lunch because he had to work. After that we were off to NL's brothers house to make lasagna. We hung out with some of NL's cousins and played some Texas Hold'em. We ended the night by going out and seeing Sweeny Tood The Demon Barber of Fleet Street with JP and NL's Cousin SW. I really enjoyed it, But JP didn't know what is was and when the first scene started he looks at us and says, "I just payed 8.50 to watch a musical? F*@%" He got over it though.


Today N and I looked at a house that he is going to make an offer on. Its a brand new 3/2/2 and has a nice size yard. It's a short sale and the Bank is asking 129,000. Another buyer made an offer so were going with 120,000 and hoping for the best. I love the kitchen and the master bedroom's closet. We are really excited about this house. It's in a wonderful neighborhood and located near I 95 and shopping centers and schools. I think it's a really good investment. N's parents are going to put in the up front cost (about 20,000) and N has been preapproved for a mortgage of 110,000 but should end up with one for less than 100,000.


So thats whats going on here. More to come, but for now... Im going to bed. Nighty night!

little friends

I have an ant problem. OK so I know I should try to keep my house a little cleaner... especially the kitchen.. But here is what baffles me- There are NO ANTS where the traces of food are. The ants are actually in my bedroom. NS and I discovered this one night after getting in to bed only to be bitten. He has three- I have 13! It seems that the little buggers are crawling out from under the carpets along the walls and crawling up the side of our bed. So I spent the entire night cleaning up the bedroom and vaccuuming the ones I could get and then went to walmart to buy ant traps. I don't understand why they would be in the bedroom because we don't take food in there. My only guess is that they may have been retreating from rain? (it had rained the day before for about 12 hours on and off and into the night causing up to miss the meteor shower!!)

just another day...

Nothing much to tell about lately. NL turned 22 on Monday. We celebrated tuesday night at the Jensen Beach Ale House. He had a good time but I was a little depressed. I felt bad because I din't want to bring him down but it is so hard for me to socialize the way he does. NL just opens up to everyone. I on the otherhand am so self concious I just sit in a corner and hope noone notices how much fatter I am. Yes.. that's exactly what I do.

Anyways, Tis the season! And I know its not going to be a very merry one for me this year. I couldn't addord a gift for NL. I also won't be able to get anyone christmas gifts. And my sister JA's 18th birthday is coming up as well... no gift. Aren't I just horrible? I wish I could get SOMETHING for all of them. But unfortunatly, you have to be 6 or under to get way with handmade gifts.

Can you tell this isn't a happy post?

single for a few hours.

Sometime's we make each other happy. ^_^

But the other day we were both ready to call it quits. I sped off in my little neon wondering where the hell am I gonna go and how am I gonna get my stuff outta that stupid apartment?! Then after about an hour or so I came home parked my car as close to the apt as I could (being that all the good spots were taken) then went inside and fell asleep on the couch. I guess NL didn't notice me on the couch while in his early morning rush to get to work and I suppose he didnt see my car either because at about 10am he called and left me a voicemail apologizing (i could be wrong but he sounded like he was crying) and he asked me to come home and try to work things out because he couldn't stand the thought of losing me.

The funny part of all this was that I had no idea what was going on while I slept peacefully and when I did wake up and listened to my voicemail, I realized something I never would have otherwise. NL really cared. You see I was always the one running back and begging for a second chance. I had never had the ability to try to let him do it. For once I had the upperhand. And it made me feel special.

I didn't call him. I waited for him to get home and he did all the talking. When he was done I told him I was sorry too and that I loved him. We worked it out. I never told him I had been home the whole time.

nightmares?

So two nights ago, I had a dream that my bf NL was in love with my sister JA.

oooook....

I figure this could be brought on by the fact that I am very jealous of my popular, cute, thin, single sister.

Then last night I dreamt that NL left me to live the single guy life.

Why is my mind tormenting me in these ways????

my thanksgiving was...

Thanksgiving was ok. In the morning I went to my best friend KW's house to have breakfast with her parents. KW was in Miami still and didn't come to town until about 3pm. After I chatted with her parents for a while I went to my sister SF's house to begin cooking. Together we made one whole turkey, two turkey breasts, green bean casserole, squash casserole, candied yams, collard greens, mashed potatoes, stuffing, rolls and gravy. For dessert I made pecan pie, peanut butter pie, cheescake brownies, and we bought apple and pumpkin pies. Yummy Yummyness. It was nice to sit around with family for a while but I was home by about 6pm becasue I can't be there toooo long. ^_^ I like being sane, thank you very much! I never did get to see KW while she was in town though which was a bummer. So that was my T-day.

ms. clean

Wow. I have been cleaning ALL DAY! And I am FINALLY seeing some RESULTS! ^_^ I have been seperating my clothes into what needs to be washed and put away and what needs to be donated to Goodwill. I am very happy at my new found willingness to part with the "goal" clothes. These being the clothese that I plan to fit into again. I figure if I lose the weight.. i will just treat myself to new clothes. So out go a mess of clothing that has been piling up and in the way for so long. I also cleaned the heck outta my kitchen. We're talking so clean i can eat off of the floor. I scrubbed the baseboards and grout in the tile. Now I am just finding a place for everything. Anything that I haven't seen in like 3 months and forgot about is getting tossed due to lack of neccesity. I guess I should get back to it all so I can finish before bed tonite. Oh yeah and if anyone needs some pens I think we have 200-300 to spare. Let me know ^_~

I love colorguard! <3

friends? ha

I am getting fed up with a few certain "friends". I am sick of the fake, "hi how ya doin"'s and forced kindness. Because we both know you don't care what's really going on with my life and no your not going to get back to me if I "just shoot you an email" because you "have to go." Let's just both say what we both know deep down inside. This friendship is dead and will be best left alone and burried. So fuck you. Ugh.



WHY DO I STILL CARE?!?!?! :'(

always tired

I seriously need a normal job. This QVC thing is just so tiring. It isn't the work really.. but the hours I am working. 6:30pm - 3:00am is just too akward. Between that job and my high school job I am not getting much sleep. I have been awake for the past 14 hours and will not have a chance to sleep for another 15 more!!! OMG am I going insane!!!! And I'm STILL not getting all the bills paid!!!! -_- I am also angry that I have been working at the HS for 3 months now and still haven't seen any compensation. Mr. M keeps saying "Next week. They take forever to cut checks around here" Well if that's so, why has the new dance teacher gotten paid already? She has only been here, like, 4 weeks!!!! GGGGGRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!

Do you know what it is that I really want to do? I just want to go back to school. I want to be a college student. I want to gain an education so I can get myself out of the mess I am in (and will stay in if I don't DO something about it.) I think it's time I put myse;f first, stop worrying about everything and everyone else and just DO IT! The only thing stopping me is this lease with NL-I don't wan't to leave him with the full burden of renting our apartment. It's not fair to him. I guess there are scholarships I could apply for for housing that could help cover my half in rent, right? I guess I better start looking if I really want this.

I feel AMAZING! I just spent about and hour at the gym in my apt. complex. It was great. I feel so good that I actually got through the hour without quitting! Go me! I was on the treadmill for a straight 25 minutes. I did as many pushups and situps that I could (will not saw exactly how many... it's a small number but it worked for me:) I used the leg station thinger and arm thinger (don't you love my equipment savvy?) And I walked home. I did a load of laundrey, took a shower, brushed and flossed my teeth and now I am posting. It's amazing how just getting out and doing some excercise can change your mood and outlook so much. I am ready to begin my dieting. Ooooh, just in time for T-day. oops. Well hey this way I will be a lil more ready for all that turkey and stuffing and mashed taters and squash casserole. ^_^

Turkey Plans

With Thanksgiving steadily approaching, I did the unthinkable. I offered to play Hostess. "What were you thinking, Cammy?"
I was thinking:
1. Dad usually does the Thanksgiving Dinner (TD)... He now lives in a bus. I am not eating TD in a bus!
2. NL's family is not having a dinner because of issues involving $15,000, a cheerleading competition and a 38+ year old momma's boy. Let's just not go here....
3. Originally I had planned to Co-host with my Older sis SD and we would use her new (big) home (and kitchen.) She is now going to NC to be with he husband's family.
4. Therefore, I stepped up and decided to host TD at NL's and my one bedroom apartment.

Well... If I want turkey, this seems to be the only way! And I actually have to work on Thanksgiving 6:30pm-3am. -_-

i like to play with my food

meet pierre

Late Night Baking

So I believe that the best way to enjoy Banana Bread is to have it warm and right out of the oven. So when I got home tonite (2am) I began baking some BB from scratch. (You should smell my apt-It's so yummy for my nose!) I wanted to surprise NL with it for breakfast. But after I made it I thought, why not add some cream cheese icing and give it to my dad as a belated birthday cake/bread since I wasn't able to see him on his bday. So I iced the cake/bread. Now I really wish I hadn't because I want a slice of the plain banana bread. And I want Nick to have some before he goes to work. So I think I will take a picture of it in it's wholeness, cut a piece for NL and myself and take my dad the remainder and the photo. ^_^

10 reasons

Here are my top ten reasons of the moment to be happy...

1. I am alive. (this is always a good one)

2. I have a job teaching something I love.

3. I have a caring and understanding boyfriend.

4. I have an awesome best friend. (even though she does live in Miami now)

5. My neighbors bring me cookies. (that taste good!)

6. I have a roof over my head and a comfy bed to sleep in.

7. I have a cute black cat named Betty who loves to snuggle.

8. The marching band I work with was rated excellent at the FBA competition yesterday.

9. I have a pumpkin to carve ^_^

10. I work at a job where someone says have a "good morning/evening" to me about 50 times an hour.

at this moment I am wondering...

should I have a salad or go for the dale's BBQ sandwich? Well there's never a better time to start dieting than now, right? I guess I'll have the salad.

Begin again.

And with this post I begin another blog. I figured it was time to start one again. The last real blog I kept was on livejournal when I was 16-17. Well I guess thats the only time I regularly posted. I have a myspace but I never thought of that as a blog. So I made this one to keep my thoughts organized. For this first post I suppose I shall describe myself and my current state. I am 20 years old and I live with my boyfriend who I will call NL. He is 21 and we have been together for about 3 years now. I work full-time for QVC in a call center where I take orders from mostly old ladies who have nothing better to spend their money on than our "Today's Special Value." And I also work part time at a local high school where I choreograph the flag routines for the marching band's colorguard. That job is fun... when things are going as planned. It's when my girls don't remember routine and we get down to 2 days before competition and it all looks like doodie that I get stressed. Oh look... competition is on Saturday. Awesome. -_- My parents live in a bus that has been converted into an RV. They have it parked on my deceased grandfather's property. Why? Because when the a/c in the actual house broke, they decided it would be easier to move into The Bus. My little sister is 17 and still lives with them...barely. Lately she has been staying with her 21 year old boyfriend who has a 2 year old kid. How promising. My older brother is in jail. I don't know how old he is. I don't really know him at all. I do know that he is older than my other sister who is 32. She is married and has 3 children. That would be my immediate family.

I realize this post would be torn apart by an english teacher but I am too lazy today. I really don't feel like fixing any paragraphing or grammar issues. Plus, NL and his buddy JP have decided that they want to annoy me. So I'm done for today.